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Mail Fraud

In the mail I received some very official looking forms. The cover page was a long winded article about your eligibility to receive ATM fee transaction refunds due to a winning class action lawsuit in the state of Pennsylvania. The first form required you to prove your eligibility by providing bank account numbers and estimates of how much in transaction fees you have paid over the last thirty six months. The second form was an alternative method of proving fee expenses that required transaction records in addition to bank account numbers. The final form was required to prove your identity, it required your birth given name and any aliases that you your bank accounts may be under, it required a statement under threat of prosecution that you have not purgered yourself in any way, finally the form required your full address, telephone number, last of all it required your social security number and dated signature.

The mail fraud giveaway was of course the bulk mail rubber stamp and a lack of the recipient’s name. Sometimes I wonder if I’m in the wrong business.

Passive Aggressive Tyranny v. the Second Amendment

On July 11th the Supreme Court ruled that the second amendment is constitutional. Four of the five supreme legal authorities within our country find our constitution unconstitutional. Specifically the sole article within our constitution designed to physically protect the minority from the majority. The second amendment protects me from trendy politics; it protects me from majority rule. When I hear of new “gun control” legislation designed to ban cheap guns, I see legislation attacking the poor; I see the majority denying the poor their right to self-defense. I know people who would never defend themselves, who instead use secret ballots to strip me of my freedoms, my very right to defend myself from secret ballots and the four Supreme Court Justices who find the Constitution unconstitutional. In economic terms every successful attack on the second amendment lowers the cost of our own oppression. If John Kerry had been elected president he would have appointed a liberal judge when chief justice Rehnquist died who would have voted in favor of supporting the District of Columbia’s very sensible however illegal ban on hand gun ownership. If John Kerry had been elected, the Supreme Court would have a majority of justices who find our Constitution unconstitutional.

History repeats itself, and that’s how it goes.

The old oppress the young.

Google Internet Mapping in Action


Google Description of Page Ranks
PageRank relies on the uniquely democratic nature of the web by using its vast link structure as an indicator of an individual page’s value. In essence, Google interprets a link from page A to page B as a vote, by page A, for page B. But, Google looks at more than the sheer volume of votes, or links a page receives; it also analyzes the page that casts the vote. Votes cast by pages that are themselves “important” weigh more heavily and help to make other pages “important”.

The value of a ranking increases by a magnitude of ten for each rank. For example a site with a rank of six will be ten times more important then a rank five and one hundred times more important then a rank four.

So I was looking at page ranks today. My new game development blog has a rank of zero, however my old development blog has a rank of three and this blog has a rank of four.

Interestingly I noticed that my myspace page has a rank of three, where as my friends have page ranks of zero, making my myspace page one thousand times more likly to come up as a google search result then their pages. How can this be? My page is a lot lamer then most of theirs and a whole let less interesting in many cases, and most of them have more friends then I do. The only answer can be my other blogs which all link to my myspace page, resulting in increased importance for the myspace page.

How does this effect the myspacers? If your in my top 12 or leave a comment on my page, the resulting link will increase the importance of your page and in turn the pages of your top friends and those who have commented on your myspace page… and their pages as well…

Global Warming – Fact or Fiction?


I came across a very interesting website today. Instead of picking a side on the global warming issues, Climate Change Daily collects news and devides it into columns depending on which side of the debate the article leans to.

Stop listening to the news, your friends and your teachers and make your own decision. If you don’t care enough to read this site then you don’t know enough to have a position.

Climate Change Daily

Who does your money belong to?


Is a man not entitled to the sweat of his own brow?

No, says the man in Washington. It belongs to the poor.
No, says the man in the Vatican. It belongs to God.
No, says the man in Moscow. It belongs to everyone.

The above was stated by the fictional character Andrew Ryan in the video game Bioshock.

Below is the 2007 Federal Government Budget. 58% of Federal Income is Spent on wealth redistribution Social Security, Income Security, Medicare and Health; all services which I don’t qualify for which I pay for which I can’t afford because I have to pay tax’s so people who do qualify can collect on these services. Who does your money belong to?


Blind Man’s Bluff


A friend suggested to me last night that he was pondering if only a fixed number of souls exist. People with souls are self aware and everyone else is no more then an inteligent animal. My first thought on the subject leaned a little to patronizing patience. But this morning I was thinking, “what if he is right?”. So I spent some time trying to reformulate his theory into a more intuitive theory that is easier to identify with as well as work with.

At first I thought on the concept of inteligent animals and I concluded that their is no way to ever know for certain if someone is self aware or an inteligent animal. Not that this distinction matters anyway, because this is in actuality a matter of perspective not a matter mental faculty.

My reformulation yielded that their are in-fact two types of people in the world, those who see the world for what it is and those who see the world from their place place within it. Intelligence, personality, attractiveness, birth right, social status and wealth play no roll in your given perspective.

Ill try to draw an analogy. Imagine that some people are playing a derivative of poker known as Blinds Man’s Bluff, a game where each player can see all cards in play except for his own and must make his bets accordingly. The other type are playing another derivative known as Draw Poker, a game where each hand is known only to it’s owner. Everyones perception of the world is based on the derivative of poker they’re playing. Some people can only see everyone else’s cards and others can only see their own.

I suggest playing each game with the same players and comparing the difference in your performance.

On a side note I believe that each group will share political perspectives and that different age groups will have different ratios of each perspective type. At some point ill arrange a study.

Dating & Marriage


Life is way too short to spend any of it with the wrong person.

People have a lot of “reasons” why they are not married or why they haven’t set a date, whether it be “not tell after school” or “not tell shes older” or “not until I get that new job” is an indicator of a lack of personal commitment. Any excuse should be considered an auto-disqualification (Auto-DQ). You are wasting your time and your girlfriend/boyfriends time (life) by being dishonest through indecision. If are already in a relationship and someone asks you out on a date, if even for an instant you consider it, you need to immediately rethink your relationship. Remember, You don’t ever need to stay in a relationship because you think you owe someone, or you feel obligated, or you don’t want to hurt their feelings. You owe it to them and yourself to be honest.

Ask yourself if you want to spend the rest of your life with this person and if they want to spend the rest of their life with you.

Accept no excuses. Life is about you and when it’s over – that’s it.




I subscribed to the Vongo video on demand service, Vongo is owned by the parent company of the Stars network. Vongo media content is provided over the internet and can by viewed using what appears to be a modified windows media player. The picture quality isn’t particularly good, lower then DVD. Vongo claims access to over twenty-five hundred movies, the available library feels much smaller. So for I have had the service for three weeks; It worked pretty well for the first week, the download feature was broken the entire second week and it has been hit and miss this week, down about half the time. Vongo doesn’t appear to restrict the number of movies you can have downloaded at once, I currently have twenty four. The best thing Vongo has going for it is it’s price, it’s way cheaper then buying DVD’s and if you only watch three movies a month it’s cheaper then renting at blockbuster on renting them on pay per view.


In fact the Vongo service is down right now.

Hungarian Revolt



Fifty-one years ago this November the people of Hungary revolted against the Soviet sponsored communist regime. Protests and mass demonstrations escalated into violence when Radio Budapest was seized by crowd after being fired upon by the police. The Hungarian military was ordered to respond and take control of the situation – they instead removed the red stars from their hats and sided with the crowd. The revolt spread across Hungary and the Soviet military responded apparently in the defense of the Communist Regime (and Soviet self-interest). Immediately the citizens armed themselves and setup barricades in the streets of Budapest and began to fight the Soviets. In a week a ceasefire was agreed upon by the new reformist Hungarian government and it appeared the Soviets might be willing to negotiate – six days later seventeen soviet armor/infantry devisions brutally crushed the uprising. Public discussion of the revolt was heavily repressed for over thirty years afterwards.

The Soviets made it clear what your fate would be if you attempted to withdraw from the Warsaw Pact.

The last official proclamation of the Hungarian National Government during the Hungarian Revolution of 1956. The proclamation was written in the Parliament building as the author awaited arrest by the Soviet military.


“Russians go home”

Picking up Hitchhikers


Besides being a great way to get action, you usually get a pretty good taste of strange. Last time I picked up a hitch hiker it turned out that I went to high school with her older brother who had since married a girl I dated in back in high school. He was a rather memorable guy, he was well known for scraping the bottom of life with his teeth – and he liked crystal meth a lot. His little sister who I picked up was rather pretty, she stole a credit card statement out of my stack of mail before she got out of the car.

My Youth Escaped


At school today I had just finished a class and I was walking past an outdoor fountain, the soft wind was blowing little droplets of water on me. I was finding it enjoyable, when some punk on a skate board going way to fast plowed into me – hard. I shoved him down on his head picked up his skate board and angrily stated “what the fuck are you doing – this is a university”. He lay on the ground looking at me, then I threw his skateboard into the middle of the fountain. I turned to leave and everyone was looking at the scene, I could see some smiles – I smiled too. I certainly enjoyed the fact that he would have to get really wet to retrieve his skateboard.

I’m not sure if I was more angry about him crashing into me or his punkness. I feel my youth slipping away – inch by inch day by day.

Stem Cell Research


After ten years of political hand wringing and regulation a new method for producing stem cells has been developed. Scientists have developed a method known as Cell Reprogramming which converts regular cells into a form equivilent to stem cells. Humanity could be entering a golden age of medicine uninhibited by dogma or cultural uncomfort.

Read the external article National Review Online – The Future Is Now

You are what you do.

It frustrates me when people tell me about themselves. More often then not they describe someone other than themselves, but whom they believe themselves to be. I always judge a person based on whom they associate with and by the decisions they make.

How would you judge your own actions from another’s prospective? You are not who you think you are – you are what you do.

Tyranny of the Unaccountable


It angers me when I see those with little power and even less authority slandering people with real accountability. It’s easy to slander and defame in a free country, you have no enforced accountability when it comes to the famous, rich and or powerful. Untrue allegations and vicious slander will make you a career but once in a position of authority, offensive statements will loose you your career – exactly why Micheal Moore wont make a Fahrenheit 9/11 sequel. God help you if you compliment someone or make generalizations, fear of offending someone will get you buried alive. We are wolves led by lambs, it is the tyranny of the unaccountable. This is a country of millions of tyrants not a country of a single tyrant.

I fear people who pride themselves on their respect for every life style and every opinion – they are the ones who will not respect your freedom to disagree.

Total Commitment Applied


Twenty Five Hundred years ago the city states of Greece faced a massive Persian invasion. Many chose to ally with the advancing Persians rather than be enslaved and destroyed – no doubt the best solution in a desperate time. Some cities refused and lost everything. This option was unavailable to the Athenians because they had dealt such a blow to the Persians in the previous war.

The Athenians had two choices and the city was torn between them. Conscript and equip the men of Attica for a final land battle or a final sea battle – either way the city would be destroyed. The Athenians consulted the oracle at Delphi; they were told they would be destroyed to the last. The indecision consisted without end until that special time once a year when the people of Athens voted to exile a single citizen from the city. Like modern times the demagogues slandered one another until the day of the election. The Athenian people exiled the major proponent for a land based battle. The merchant marine of ancient Athens fanned out across the Aegean Sea in search of raw materials for which to build ships.

With her fleet Athens was evacuated, the city overrun and destroyed. The Athenian allies wavered, the Peloponnesians under Spartan leadership wanted to build a wall at the Isthmus of Corinth where they believed they could hold off the Persians indefinitely with the same spirit they showed at Thermopylae months before, essentially abandoning Attica. The Athenians reminded the Spartans that Thermopylae would have been impossible without the Athenians fleet keeping the Persians from transporting troops by sea behind the fortifications at Thermopylae and that a fortification at the Isthmus could only be maintained if the Athenian fleet remained. Remain it would not if the Peloponnesians abandoned Attica, for the Athenians threatened to board there ships and head for the Italian peninsula safe from the reach of the Persians thus abandoning the Peloponnesians to be overrun by the Persians from the sea.

The Athenian fleet fought and won at the battle of Salamis while the Xerxes and the people of Athens looked on. Xerxes distraught with another defeat at the hands of a much smaller Greek force left his army under the command of a subordinate and departed for Perspolis (the Persian capital, famously burned to the ground by a drunken Alexander the Great). Xerxes army was later defeated by a confederation of Greeks at the Battle of Platea. The Athenians committed to war with the Persians would later liberate the Aegean and Ionia from Persian dominion.

The Athenians were totally committed, are you?

Never Relent – Never Surrender.

Everything in Moderation

Everything in moderation, wouldn’t be moderation would it?

What a foolish saying, I don’t take advice from people who use this saying. In my experience they usually think they know whats best for everyone, but never have a clue about anything.


Today I encountered the second most fearless person I have ever observed (first is reserved). I witnessed a very pretty blind girl with her blind persons cane tapping down the middle of  wide courtyard, she was moving pretty quick. In her shirt pocket she had an iPod and it’s headphones in her ears. She was essentially blind and deaf and in a very crowded place. I would have attempted to make friends with her but I estimated that getting her attention could be at least hard and at most dangerous.

Short bus aside, she is among the kind of friends I want.

Traffic School


Traffic School was beyond awesome.

Their was this Russian guy that would comment on everything anyone said. When the old women who thought they didn’t belong in the class would complain about fees, he would say “Welcome to America” when they complained about sign placement or poor street paint he would say “Go To Russia – they don’t have that shit”. At lunch he tried to sell me 19″ rims out of his trunk.

Most of the people in attendance were guilty of traffic violations other then speeding. Some of the people in the class attended traffic school every eighteen months (California’s limit). Some people tried to add their own experiences, friends experiences or even their own opinion to everything the teacher covered. One guy told a story of getting a ticket for nearly everything the teacher covered. This one woman named Barbie talked at the teacher the entire time, when I was leaving this big Indian guy associated with the Indian Casino here walked by me and asked if I had fun, then before I could answer he said “Fucking Barbie wont shit up”

The class itself was being held at a Methodist Church – in the Jesus room. The walls were covered with painting and fabric deals of Jesus being holy and glowy. Pretty much every conceivable hobbyist incarnation of Jesus was represented. My folding chair was awesome, something was irritating my back so shifted to the side a bit sliding my back along the back of the chair; my shirt got sliced open; the chair had a screw drilled through the back of it that was just barely poling through the fabric cover. My Six Million Dollar Man t-shirt is so ruined.

Action is Everything

Total Commitment
Accept No Excuses
Never Surrender - Never Relent
Resist Ignorance
Survivability is Security
More is Never Enough
You Are What You Do
More and Faster
Self Sufficient Is Inefficient